THE FRONTLINES

Do you believe that in our dreams, We can be fighting in this spiritual realm? Have any of you ever experienced Going to sleep and then waking up feeling like you've been in a war? Have any of you had any visible Physical evidences that it is true? I have had this happen periodically all throughout my life. I literally remember having a dream when I was in my teen years about having a doll. And the doll was scratching me in my dreams. And when I woke up in real life. I had scratches on me. We all know that we're going through something big in our lives as we know it.... Back story: Many of you know that I have been in a spiritual warfare battle pretty much all of my life. Having been abused physically, emotionally, sexually, and mentally since my young child years. On top of dealing with constant rejection and bullying from my peers, Having this feeling of warnting friendship so bad, That it opened me up to more pain than it did good... Rejection from adults that were supposed to love me and teach me how to be a productive citizen, To the mental warfare that was going on in my mind. Feeling unworthy, being insecure, of fearing everything and everyone. All my life I have had this unspoken super power, The harder I tried to be accepted and loved people and proved that I was loyal and a good friend. The more people rejected me and hated me and used/abused me. To live your entire life, feeling like you are a Burden to everyone and everything, To feel like nobody actually loves you... But they say they do either because they feel they are obligated to or they feel pity for you.... So what did I do? I continued to look for love in all of the wrong places and I continued To numb my pain with drugs and other addictions, Until I stood before the mirror and recognized myself no more... The biggest betrayal, was from me... to me.... by me.... I had given this life so much. Of myself until I no longer existed. It felt like being in the black space of emptiness.. The lies of the enemy, My entire life was that I was no good that I would never amount or measure up. The false evidence of this was the rejection of others... The grace of god was the protection by means of the rejection. All this time I was distracted which was what the enemy wanted, I was entangled in selfishness, I could only see what people did to me. And how they hurt me, I couldn't see why. I now realize as an adult that those people only hurt me because of the insecurities and the battles that lie inside their own mind and lives. They were overly confident (popular) because inside they were more insecure then I. They saw in me a potential (that I couldn't and still struggle to see) to do more, be more, they saw Gods favor, mercy, and grace poured out upon my life and they wanted that but dident know how to show it or ask for help so it came out by means of pride, jealousy. Anger, bullying and belittling. All of this drew me deeper into spiritual warfare battles, that I dident know existed, dident know how to conquer, it was nonstop torment to me... Because I had nor developed trust in the Lord.... I never knew it was because of the calling God put on my name, the mess was for the message, the struggle was to gain the Lord's strength... Now as I am 33, and the condition of out world, I know God is coming soon because ot feels like every night I am in the battlefield. I wake up and my body is sore, I'm exhausted, I feel famished, no energy, every joint, muscle, jaw, is hurting. This let's me know, I need to get prepared. To stay focused. I need to pray and fast but stay hydrated. I need to shift my focus to learning the weapons of my warfare, to trust God that much more, to seek his guidance that much more, to get ready because God is awakening his solders. He's letting us see what it has been, what it is, we're at war, and if we're not fighting for God and righteousness, we're fighting for the enemy.... Have yall been fighting in your sleep? It's a vision of what's to come. Get prepared solders. Gods army is getting ready #PreparingForTheFrontLines Laura G McKnight